"Lord, My eyes betray me,
My body is weak,
Lord you are strong,
and in my heart I know you are my God,
You are my strength,
Lord today and every day guide me,
and strengthen me in you,
Carry me where I need it,
And protect me from evil,
Forgive my weaknesses,
and forgive my body,
For you are my Lord and Savior,
And I would be nothing without you, AMEN"
I finally got to talk to Britt, I really enjoyed it. I talked to her about our weekends and stuff. I called my grandparents, they are doing good. My memere got the birthday card I sent her and she like it. My pepere is doing well, I am glad he is not getting any worse. That must be so hard to lose your grip on reality and know its happening but not know what you are losing. I talked to eliza, britt's friend, and talked to her about my existance, and she said that I need to look at what is in front of me and be happy with it, not look anywhere else, and know that God has a plan and to go with it and follow him. I worked tonight, it went well. I am watching baseball right now and it is nostalgic, I miss home, but I don't think I will be truely happy anywhere or with anything. But what I do know is that God is with me whereever I go, and I am so glad for that and for Him. I wish that I had the means to find himself earlier in life, before I gathered this past darker then my shadow, always following me always making me remember it is there. Running never solves anything, you can't escape the past, only embrace it. The pastor said today that he heard once that "he who cannot fogive breaks the bridge over which they must one day travel." Being naive and not knowing these darker things helps because you won't have that come to mind. One day I will be happy with myself, and happy with everything, and one day that feeling of ecstacy and excitment will never leave, that day is not today, but it is something to look forward to... Goodnight...
My body is weak,
Lord you are strong,
and in my heart I know you are my God,
You are my strength,
Lord today and every day guide me,
and strengthen me in you,
Carry me where I need it,
And protect me from evil,
Forgive my weaknesses,
and forgive my body,
For you are my Lord and Savior,
And I would be nothing without you, AMEN"
I finally got to talk to Britt, I really enjoyed it. I talked to her about our weekends and stuff. I called my grandparents, they are doing good. My memere got the birthday card I sent her and she like it. My pepere is doing well, I am glad he is not getting any worse. That must be so hard to lose your grip on reality and know its happening but not know what you are losing. I talked to eliza, britt's friend, and talked to her about my existance, and she said that I need to look at what is in front of me and be happy with it, not look anywhere else, and know that God has a plan and to go with it and follow him. I worked tonight, it went well. I am watching baseball right now and it is nostalgic, I miss home, but I don't think I will be truely happy anywhere or with anything. But what I do know is that God is with me whereever I go, and I am so glad for that and for Him. I wish that I had the means to find himself earlier in life, before I gathered this past darker then my shadow, always following me always making me remember it is there. Running never solves anything, you can't escape the past, only embrace it. The pastor said today that he heard once that "he who cannot fogive breaks the bridge over which they must one day travel." Being naive and not knowing these darker things helps because you won't have that come to mind. One day I will be happy with myself, and happy with everything, and one day that feeling of ecstacy and excitment will never leave, that day is not today, but it is something to look forward to... Goodnight...
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