August 30th

First actually being online and posting post in a while, I worked my first night shift and I AM EXHAUSTED, but damn good tips like 6 something... My six button seems stuck or something... i don't have any idea. OH, Justin, Brittany and I went to thayer street and Prospect Park. Check out the pose of Roger Williams' statue. He is totally getting his
lean on... I got pizza and starbucks! yay! Sleep now...

August 29th

Just got woken up by my door being kicked in... Going on a peacful walk now. <--- 7 AM
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Back from my walk, I found some cool places I never have been before, I am very calm now. Gotta go help clean and stuff...

August 28th

10:59 AM
Just programmed my bike odometer and am heading out for my day

3:18 PM
I am who i am because that is who God made me...

August 27th

I am in a great mood. I got extra hours, I am so in love, and i played monopoly and had so much fun. Great night tonight, also helped mom with the basement...

August 26th

8:50 AM
I dreamt i made a movie, and I could see the movie I watched it, it was a short film, but i dont rember much about it, then i had to save everyone and they were all high on some lsd esque thing, anything with a motor seemed like it was a monster or had one in it to them. the movie started off with people in a gym doing a form sloppily and then there was the one who did it right and it looked really good and it was spinning around this guy and he was some sort of hero.

10:19 PM
beach was very nice, however, it was 12 dollars to get in and we had to go to the bank then back, and bill tore up the beach, piles of seaweed and really rocky.

August 25th

I am keeping up with this, almost done, work was good today, got a little upset with the manager, but kept it to myself, And will keep it that way... Anyway, got to see Brittany for a bit and we went to the park near her house, rode the carousel and fed some swans, got great pictures, A swan ate out of my hand! it was So cool!!!....

August 24th

Went to atwood grill with my grandparents. It was a good meal, we talked about 1940's. How my grandparents met, he used to hang out on the corner near her house, and after the war he worked in the mill and he got something every week from my memere to distribute to the workers, like pay or something, and they got married in 1952. What my memere did during the war, worked as a payroll accountant, and got to help the book keeper so she learned a bit, then she got moved to a different mill and was put as cost accountant, she had to figure out how much it cost to produce each type of cloth using the cost to do each part, even electricity... About today's wars, yesterday's wars, and the atomic bomb. Pepere said the japanese told him that a bird came and dropped fire... talking about incendiary bombs. It was very interesting. After that I watched a traffic court show, and went home, and watched TV and waited till my mom got home and went to Brittany's, we had BLT's and it was very good, but the problem of leaving came, and my E-Brake got stuck, but she got it down and I got home safe. Then brittany and I watched a "Future of... Sex" show and now I am going to bed...

August 23rd

Went to church today, came home and had company, realized I would be a pretty great dad. And I watched some sci channel, great stuff. Fusion on earth and string theory...

August 22nd

Just got back from Waterfire with Brittany Raquel and Italo. I may have made a bit too much noise, which wasn't much. It woke both people up, and I got in trouble because:

1. Noone is suppose to come in with me.
2. I allegedly made too much noise
3. I shouldn't go upstairs if I am to come in late...
   

August 21st

Life is all about choices, each choice you make, each path you take has consequences. We should all look at that before we make a choice, say a word or think a thought. Maybe this will make our world a better place.

August 20th

Catching up is a bitch. But I can feel my mind activate different places the further back I try to remember. But anyway, I had weird dreams the past couple days, one involving being chased though a super market by crazed women trying to make the most amazing snack to females EVER. And then seeing a mouth inside someone's belly button... way weird dream. But I am being haunted by phrases my ex used to say frequently and they are all in a modified english, ie. something close to baby talk. And it bothers me because I see parallels between my relationship then and my current one, and I don't want the same thing to happen. But it is a learning process, and I will get there. I also realized today that I am sad when Brittany is sad, especially emo on her period due to stress because her family is falling apart etc. And I feel like I don't know how to react, but I also don't know what to say to make it better, but I think it's best I don't say anything. Just let her use my shoulder and wait for her smiling face to return. I spent most of the day with her today, and we had ALOT of good times: Crazy dancing in the car to techno and 90's pop, fun stuff, I showed her Arcanum and she seemed to really like it. I attempted to cook a weinie but it didn't work as well as planned, esp. since I made it with onions and a bunch of spices and it tasted horrible, probably good to someone, but it was bareable... Her aunt made a really great shrimp dish and it was delish, and we cuddled and went for a walk and enjoyed the night air.... I met Brittany's great aunt's great niece, and she got all shy and cowared from me and hide in the couch, but, I work tommorow and need to sleep, feels good to get thoughts down... OH INTERVIEW FOR LAUNDROMAT! Went well I think, hopefull Brittany and I will get the postions... But wow, I need to do something different tomm. at neurofeedback. But hey, goodnight...

August 19th

Ghost Hunters came on tonight and I tried my ass off to get to Brittany's and almost got there on my own, but I believe I broke her control arm when I jumped the curb last time... :( But she ended up driving me both ways and we watch a few episodes, I swam before I went, and we played LIFE cause I brought it over. Brittany won with over 2 Mil. I almost won but was slightly under with 1.89 Mil. She had the higher paying job, but no complaining or attempts to make excuses. I enjoyed the episodes, but I think I hurt Brittany's feelings because I said she was long winded about things she liked, but its ok, I feel bad that I let her talk though. I will get better...

August 18th

I worked from 11-5 today, fairly fun shift, not as entertaining but fun none the less. I met an older man who remembers when he could buy a 23 oz beer for a nickel... and when 40 dollars a week was pay, which could buy you a suit! I wish I could do that today, work a week and buy a suit... I think I can I just don't work enough... :( He was in the air force and flew in a B24 Liberator. Interesting talk I had with him. Then after I got home, Brittany had cleaned most of my room which looks fantastic, but we had an very fun very long session at neurofeedback. Brittany got in on it, and I did my calming stuff and it is sooooo awesome...

August 17th

I forgot to mention yesterday that I laughed so hard because brittany was freakin' out at a BUILDING! We hadn't planned to see each other today, actually the complete opposite but we came to the conclusion that we cannot spend a day without each other so she came over, but not before I spent hours playing the Sims or some other game, but spending a good part of my day barely dressed in front of my computer occupied with games... But she is sleeping over tonight because she is low on gas and it would help if she could stay because I have an appointment tomm....

August 16th

Church today, really good service and great discussion during sunday school, second week on prayer. After church, brittany and I went to see the building where TAPS (The Atlantic Paranormal Society) was created. while we were in the area we went to Oakland Beach and sat on the rocks, took a short dip in the water and got brittany her first clam cakes and doughboys from Iggy's...

August 15th

I had neurofeedback today for the first time in a while. It was good, really interesting stuff. she tried a new spot and I did really good at it. Raquel and Italo came over and we swam in the pool and looked at my yearbook, it was fun. I haven't mentioned Brittany yet because it is kind of assumed she is with me every day, not complaining, just letting you know. then me and my mom argued, I went to italo's house, we played Buzz! and it was fun, then I came home and Brittany slept over.

August 14th

Just got back from getting lost in pawtucket trying to get to brittanys, got home fine, but it took me too long and i got called inconciderate AGAIN...

August 13th

Got home from the club my head is pounding, and i feel sick, i am sleeping downstairs tonight, so i will not disturb everyone...

August 12th

I didnt get too much done as far as knox goes but i had fun tonight and there is another fun night on the way :)

August 11th

ok, so better day, my mom and i reached an agreement and everything worked out, i had a really scary dream about spiders this morning, and now i have tummy ache... :( probably should go eat something, or take pepto...

August 10th

Great first day at work, i am arguing with my mom more and more, and i cant do it anymore

August 9th

Today. I. Accomplished. My. Goal. I left for church at 9 AM. I have been trying to do that for i don't even know how long. But regardless. It was a really good service, and bible study time. I am sliding right back into things, attitudes and stuff, and nothing around here has changed, I can't be the new person I have become if noone around changed either. But whatever. I am tired, and am going to bed, hopefully I will be creative in the morning...

August 8th

I went to my memere's and had a very nice lunch. Meat potatoes and corn. I found something odd in my corn, like a hard piece or something but it's ok, the rest was delish! I enjoy spending time with them. Then me and Brittany went to waterfire, watched it get lit, which was beautiful, and went up to the mall for food and to see it from a height; Met raquel and italo there, we all walked to a jazz stage and then they went to go find their friend Bill as me and Brittany listened to the jazz. It was really interesting. Then when they go back, the show ended, and we walked up to thayer st. and had Johnny Rockets. Fun times, so exhausted now...

August 7th

More organizing! We finally moved my bureau to another spot and I moved my TV and Stereo. Me and brittany went crazy trying to get to the beach by bus but we made it, I saw some people I know. I found out that I look so different I am unrecognizable. Good thing about that is that people that didnt know me well enough can't pick me out of a crowd. I had an interesting dream about planning my wedding, I remember the nervousness vividly, it was August 11th. I am being told to go to bed so I am going...

August 6th

Today brittany and I cleaned more of my room, put shelves places and sorted out my clothes. I called a pizza place I applied at but they just put my thing on file so I didn't get that job...

August 5th

Ok, so here's what I got done.

1. Applied at NY System
2. Applied at the laundromat
   
3. Started my URI app.

Got stuck at brittany's house, but had great pasta ala uncle eddie. her car had thrown oil everywhere inside, so my brother had to come give it a look...

August 4th

Today I set up brittany's computer, went all over Rhode Island, looked at Home Depot for wood, mailed stuff at the post office and I got nearly licked to death by the cutest terrier EVER, we applied for jobs and I have a good feeling about it...

August 3rd

Got more done today. Visited my dad for a long tome, showed him my videos, matthew wasn't amused. Before that we unpacked brittany's car, told ghost stories at Dads, got a lab urine sample done... yeah, I have to have ultrasounds and that sample taken before my doctor will see me. And I FINALLY got my 13 credits at CCRI, so now I am good for school, I really like my schedule, and I finally get to sleep in my bed, so I am now, goodnight...

August 2nd

I have finally made it. I AM HOME. and I brought someone with me. Someone that I wish never to leave, This will be tough but I think we can make it work, I say tough because I have never dated like this, you know, in two separate households. Especially since I don't have a job. I am utterly exhausted, and glad to finally be home...

August 1st

this is my last blog from richmond, and it is from richmond, and i had fun at the beach, got nice and burned, going to be brown soon, I hope, and now its time for bed. Big day tomorrow.