February 28th

The next time you do something, don't just live through the moment, EXPERIENCE it. Describe the moment in your head, describe what you feel, what you smell, enjoy every single moment in your existence, connect with everything, it will be so much more different then anything else you have ever done...

February 27th

Well then, today was uninteresting, and bland... until about 11 when someone showed up at my door and we have been hangin out, and i got bk and it was good, then stephen and his fiancee came back and it's been so fun, and a supposed nympho wanted to have sex with me but we are just platonic, and apparently i am hot because of my "sexy swagger and inevitable charm". But hey, thanks, thats new. More tommorow, or later today rather...

February 26th

Alone again, just alone, like dangling from a wire, you know its all there but you cant get to it. I wish someone would just cut the string...

February 25th

Today was a rather fun day, truely it was, I went to the mall and spent alot time in macys, then went to this foreign flix store and it was supah cool, but im just watchin stephen play halo 3 but im gonna go to bed, post again tommorow...

February 24th

I am tending to stay up so late, maybe I can try harder to go to bed early but I don't think so, so I'm just gonna continue working on my RPG and get life on...

February 23rd

Well now, today was overall a successful day, just got done watching heroes, and they always gotta have nuclear explosion, every time, like seriously, c'mon man, but anyway. I had an overall successful day, I went with stephen around the plaza near my apartment and we applied for jobs, we filled out an app for target, and got one from trader joes, the rest of the places had online apps. Class was good, I am gaining a serious appriciation for economics...

February 22nd

Alot worked out today, I got my charger, FINALLY, it was sent to the wrong mail box, stupid USPS, but anyway, met a guy offered me a job when work picks up, and I am planning on going job hunting tommorow...

February 21st

Well, its 1 am on the 22nd, but i blog late sometimes, I am sorting through my own mind and coming up with valuable knowledge, I had an Epiphany a few nights ago in my dreams, but i forgot what it was, but regardless I am becoming a better person, and that is benefiting me for the better, I love life and feel free, but i need sleep, so sleep i shall get, INFO 16x homework later today, after church...

February 20th

I have most recently have lost use of my cell phone, i forgot my charger at my friends house after a visit, and she mailed it to be but has not got here yet, and so my phone died. I have been without it for 2 days, and today the internet shut off for a bit. I realized that i can live without, i can be unplugged, and i should try and take a break every once in a while...

February 19th

Day 1 of completely no cell phone, and i can't call anyone, i miss hearing my mom. And I am lost, and need to work on school.

February 18th

I have fully realized today that my math class bores me to sleep, i have class at 4, i got 9 hours of sleep, and drank about a quarter cup of triple brewed coffee at 2, and when i got out of class at 5:15 i probably could have slept for a few hours, its a good thing Macro economics is more exciting...

February 17th

My electric bill is due tomorrow, I still don't have checks from my roommates, and I have been dealing with copyright stuff all day with a new video i am trying to post on youtube. But at this very moment, sleep is on my mind...

February 16th

Lots and Lots of stuff, life is good today, very good

February 15th

Amazing weekend, so much fun, and now i miss her, but so tired, must sleep...

February 14th

Yeeeeehaaw Happy Valentine's day chilllllldren, This is three dog ooowwww, naw just kidding, but seriously readers, have yourself a special day, and don't you ever forget about your loved ones. Talk to you again later...

February 13th

OOOOOOHHHHH Friday the 13th! amazing movie, scary day. Ok guys, this is to you, if your wife or girlfriend ever goes to a "slumber party", she is buying sex toys to try out new things with you or with her secret friend. So it better be you, so buy her something nice for tommorow...

February 12th

Ridiculous, I spent 6 hours in transit, car, bus, metro, more car. So much travel, but i'm excited to be here at last

February 11th

I am conflicted, worried about breaking too far apart, excited about getting close, I am just gonna live, and let things happen...

February 10th

Ok, so, got more reading done, got alot of studying to do before tommorow, and then thursday I get to see jess, I am honestly very excited, not to mention the hormone imbalance is driving me up the wall, but enough of that, I gotta sleep...

February 9th

Picture a statue, usually its a statuette but for this example picture a statue of a man, just the figure, you want to see the statue, but you can't, and you can't because there are all these walls forming circles around it, Steel, Brick and Mortar, Wood. There are no doors, no way to reach the inside, so you stand there, waiting. There are framed pictures outside, pictures of this man on the inside, you look at them all and the steel wall falls letting you closer, before you stands a brick wall, with more pictures, and behind you the steel wall rises, you look at all the pictures, various in nature, then the wall falls same as before, you walk through, and the wall rises. before you is a wooden wall. There are photos laying all over the ground, random photos, you follow them until you reach a door, you walk through the door and inside you see the statue of a boy, curled in a ball, mirrors on the walls, so no matter where you look you have to face yourself. The statue looks fragile enough that the slightest touch might shatter it. The photos closest to the statue are stained with tears. The statue is holding one of himself, with a heart behind it, it is ripped in half and he is trying to put it together. This is me, I put up walls, I show myself at face value, until you get to know more and more about me, the walls crumble around you, but when you reach me I am nothing more then an innocent 12 year old crying over the mistakes, and trying to make himself whole again. Look up, what do you see... The sky, the only direction you can look is towards the heavens...

I used to be able to gauge people, gauge them and their weaknesses, everyone has them, even a diamond can be broken... Fire.

How can one truly search their soul without becoming truly one with themselves without distraction. But the soul yearns for connections, it begs for a hole to be filled, the hole left by God, so we have to seek him, and to look for ourselves is to seek him. To find ourselves we must find God. But how do we find God? That is the question, where do we look, what can we do. Where is the map? I have an answer... The Bible, read it, but do more than read, understand, comprehend, BELIEVE. Let God transform your life, if you are having troubles, it is God who can help you. I was planning to blog about something else, but I feel lead to write this, but I added what I was going to write above. Heaven is the goal, Jesus is the guide, the Bible is the map. follow in his footsteps and you will prosper...

February 8th

I dont know whats going on anymore, seriously, what the hell, i dont know, just sleep...

February 7th

good day, I worked out today, elipticaled for a very long distance, 11 or so miles, and i read what i wanted, but the rent check was never turned in, so I brought the checks in today and the woman told me that after 3rd they accept checks they only accept cashiers check or money orders, and there is some fine, but cause we hadnt paid late before they might waive the fee, but i dont know what they are going to do. But i got what i wanted to do done, more tommorow...

February 6th

Oh my gosh, so tired, must sleep, got nothing done today, well except argued with jess, but thats not an accomplishment, maybe i will get more done tommorow.

February 5th

so... cold... so very very cold. I felt feverish and so tired today and wanted to get home as soon as i could, and so i did. And napped and watched tv and relaxed, more later...

February 4th

Sleepiness, Bluetooth Phone Rape, Awkward stories and fun times, pretty much sums up my day till now, and I am only just begining to explore my new laptops functionality. It's very awesome, but i definately need sleep. So I am going to go get it...

February 3rd

I hurt so bad, my body is all hurtin' cause I worked out too hard, and I am very out of shape. Yes, i know i look amazing but i am still out of shape. and i am very sleepy, sort of, not really just need an excuse to stop blogging. More tommorow...

February 2nd

OMG, The laptop I want isnt on New Egg, it was so much cheaper, but i didnt jump at the chance. This is so dumb, I NEED A LAPTOP!!!!! this one in particular, this is so dumb, I got to get things done...

February 1st

Woah, Liam Neeson kicks ass in Taken. And superbowl was only good in the last 10 minutes.