April 30th

I commenced in an airsoft battle/shootout, mild pain, nothing too bad. Good day overall, I passed my exam. I am happy about that, I haven't talked to britt today, her parents took her phone, I am covering someone's shift tomm. So I must sleep now…

April 29th

today work was slow as usual, I studied for a bit before my exam. My exam went pretty well, then I came home and relaxed and have ben ever since. Me jake and stephen took nyquil and are see how long we can stay up. I think I will lose...

April 28th

Ok, so firecrackers are loud, very very loud. Like a flashbang, but anyway, good day today, I felt so beyond happy at work, like it was just like woooo, in a good way, especially when i thought of britt. I made her feel better today, her parents think she is going to die in richmond. She isn't, she is completely safe. But anyway, I must go to bed, I have injested nyquil and will soon pass out...

April 27th

She left me speechless today, I had no words to describe anything, I could not reply back. She said "i dont know what i did to deserve you, but i'm glad that i have you in my life." I couldn't reply. and we have realized that we have been brought together by God and have a purpose in each other's lives and we think we can help each other because we are more alike then we realize. I make her so happy. She makes me happy, I enjoy making her giggle, it's cute. But I must slumber soon to regain my strength.

April 26th

I have a bad cold. And its so nice outside, I went to church, and while I was singing my singing tone dropped a lot, but then I coughed up phlegm after church and everything was fine, and I have been getting better, however, earlier I ran a small fever, but I have to go to bed now. Goodnight…

April 25th

Wow, so the concert was amazing, so so good, it was the 100^th show; my favorite songs were the Halo theme and the sonic themes. They were all really good, another favorite was the medal of honor one, they played a montage of video from WWII during it, and it was intense. I had a really good time. I am still working on my relationship with this amazing girl, its going well. But I just took Tylenol cold, so I am about ready to pass out…

April 24th

From 10-2:15 this amazing girl stopped by and neither of us could stop smiling. It was so amazing. During work however, I got post nasal drip from allergies and it sucked so bad, I bought the generic zyrtec and took it, and its drying up, and its making me so exhausted , so I shall sleep… And hope for another amazing day tomorrow…

April 23rd

Today was a good day, I could not find the remote for a good long while. A LONG time, but then jake found it like an hour ago, the couch had eaten it. Not funny couch, not at all… Anyway, tomorrow should be a good day. 11 by the way. For those of you counting. I am doing good in my opinion. On 7 months to go, well, I can only get better from here. But now I must sleep. Sleep good and deep. My legs are sore, but I went to the bank, my check is all straightened out, and everything is the way it should be. Goodnight…

April 22nd

Ok, so I'm a good guy, cool, but too affectionate for tori right now, but hey, I have good news about the summer. Everything is gonna work out. I know it.

April 21st

Wow, so I was on campus since like 4 until moments ago, it's almost 1, but I finally made it home. I love my friends, she offered, I didn't even ask. But now I'm home, it's so lonely, I ate a couple times, and hung out, went to a bible talk, took a nap outside, and went to class, not in that order. But God provides, and I love him, he is my rock and my provider. Goodnight…

April 20th

Another good day, I am sooooooo Tired, bed time now... I got my money situation situated, and it is all working out, so I am good. Dreamland here I come...

April 19th

Today, I made a table in excel that calculates your total pay after taxes based on hours and wage. It looks pretty, and I am tired, this couple from church took me out to eat and paid for my food because they thought I was leaving for the summer. I searched for my missing check, I will continue tomorrow…

April 18th

Wonderful day. I learned more about my bike, mailed my memere's birthday card, and went to work. Work was busy, but the end was really funny, and I got 4.50 in tips, some guys tried getting a discount but couldn't drive to pick it up cause they were drunk. This lady called like 3 times, twice before she actually ordered anything, she wanted to hear all the toppings that came on all the specialty pizzas, I talked to her the last time, and she was nice when she gave her order. I checked out a martial arts studio today, it was interesting, costly but interesting, that was my day and now its done, goodnight…

April 17th

Good day, stephen's brother and niece came over this morning, hung out for a while, it was fun. I called CCRI today about the placement test, and turns out I just need to mail them my transcript and everything should be fine. I am only going there to make up a few classes and then I should be fine. I worked, and bought my memere a birthday card. I am excited about next week. I get to find out the results of my econ exam, chances are good that I have an accounting exam, and the best part is that I'm going on a legit date on Saturday, I am going to the video game concert. But I really must be going to bed, more to do tomorrow. Goodnight…

April 16th

I bought a new bicycle today, it is very cool, and its metallic green and it's comfortable. I rode it 11 miles to campus, uphill almost the whole way. So many hills, but I am going to bed now, my sore body calls to dreamland…

April 15th

Today was a good day, I BS'd an exam, hung out with Tori, had a lot of fun today, had good food, lots of great times, all around good day, I work tomorrow. 11-2 I will be sure to stay good.

April 14th

Good things abound today, I ate good food, I hung out with Tori, the girl i'm crushin on, we watched Dr. Phil and arthur, it was fun, then I took my Microsoft Access exam and got a 95! I am excited, I am kinda taking a bad turn with my addiction, but I am going to go take a cold shower and sleep, I need God, he's there, I just need to reach...

April 13th

Well, good day, I studied for a bit, went to class, no date, rescheduled for tomorrow. I have my last online class exam tomorrow, I hope tomorrow goes better.

April 12th

Happy Easter, today was so good, I went to church and the choir sang the songs as the message today, then I went to stephen's fiance's house for lunch, then visited his grandma, and then went to jake's house for dinner, it was fun, I rode on a buggy thing, it was fun, not too much insight today, just a good day. I am going to bed soon though, big day tomorrow, first date after jess. J I am excited.

April 11th

I got my stuff for one of my classes done, I worked and got home and I have been watching TV ever since. I am excited about tomorrow because I will be going to a bunch of peoples houses for Easter stuff, cook outs and the like, fun stuff, but I need to study for some classes, and I have a date on Monday night. I am excited for the coming days J

April 10th

Well, I am over tired, I need sleep, I talked to that wonderful girl from before until 5 AM, I went through a flurry of emotions, it was intense. I came to realize I am more devout then I thought, and nothing can change that, because my God is my King, my Savior and all. I also realized that I need to stop feeling so guilty when what I am guilty about is not as big as I make it out to be. But it will take time. I praise God for putting the people in my life that he has, and giving me the intelligence I have. And it is my prayer that I find a way to maximize the usefulness of what God has given me. Shall I write? Direct? Or shall I do something that not even I know yet? It is not mine to decide, it has already been decided by God. And now for something a bit darker, emotions are fleeting, they change as the winds do, but emotions remind us that we are still human. So think about this, would you rather be cold and empty, or feel anger and sadness? Think about it, and I will dream…

April 9th

Short day, good day, well, except that after work and after eating work food I had a study friend come pick me up, I ended up as an amoeba, and at points it looked like rape, but it wasnt, then stephen walked into the apartment and i was laying face up over her lap. I felt insta judged, even tho stephen wouldnt do that. Bed now…

April 8th

Flirting is fun, I enjoy the process, the result, is often unfavorable, most would consider it a win. But now i'm playing their game, the dating game, and i'm just getting started. Exclusivity is something that is a goal, not a right. I will play the game the way it was meant to be played, date till you find someone you think is good, and "go exclusive" that way, you can't get stuck in a failing relationship, that is what I meant earlier. But now bed so I can wake up tommorow with some sleep under my belt. I watched Daniel Craig's bond films, Quantum of Solice is pretty good, kick ass action, and lots of cool stuff, I have issue with Casino Royale, the time stream is a little weird, or maybe alot. Met this girl last night, hung out tonight, SO GLAD Jess dropped me. I wont analyze this girl's character right now, the cuteness and flirtation is too much fun. Goodnight...

April 7th

Good Day, I studied, stephen beat Resident Evil 5, cool ending. Friends just left, new friends anyway, cool people. I am tired, I am going to bed like now...

April 6th

I am so incredibly out of it today, I have been having a bad day before I went to bed. I almost negotiated some "favors" with someone I would not normally talk about it to, and then I succumbed to the torrent inside and felt bad, and went to bed. But before I went to bed, I declared that that was the bottom and that I will not get any worse, but rather, I will get better, much better. I bought pencils and a notepad today, I am going to write and draw ideas in it and all sorts of fun stuff. It will inspire me towards the finalization of a few really spectacular ideas that I can expand on during the summer. Stephen helped me lay out the vision for Dual Infernos like this:

• Write and get ideas
  
• Make short films during the summer
  
• Pick my favorite and submit it to film festivals
  

Win or not, I can improve myself, my ideas, my abilities. I am trying to become better, and plan a route for my ambitions. But today I couldn't find my belt, left my work hat at home, and was late, not too much though because God was looking out for me. One of the delivery drivers saw me and decided to pick me up and give me a ride to work. Nice guy. I was only a minute late, which is good. Another good thing is I haven't sent a text message sent since I woke up this morning. But I got a splinter from playing at a playground yesterday, not good, but I got it out, which is good. Ok, so now the good parts of my day.

1. I went to class.
   
2. I got a B on the Econ 211 exam I took.
   
3. I got a C on the accounting exam, which is better than I have been doing, I am almost guaranteed a C. I say almost because it isn't a definite.
   
4. I studied for my exams on Wednesday.
   
5. I am going to bed earlier than I normally do, so I can get more sleep.
   
6. I am looking forward to the days ahead instead of dwelling on the mistakes of the past. J
   
7. I am going to get a bike sometime SOON. J
   

Ok, well now I am going to watch Stephen play Resident Evil 5, he is going to beat it, and thus I shall watch. Ciao…

April 5th

Me + Girl = Kiss

However that is not what happened today, because I misread signals, but it's ok, but anyway, I had a good day, LCHS Alice in Wonderland was very good, then I ate at a delicious Mexican restaurant. So much fun today, but more homework, and bed now…

April 4th

Great day today, fun times at work, and I am hoping that tomorrow is just as good. Yesterday I had a bad call, but tonight was so slow it was awesome. I am trying to quell the intense sex drive within me. I want to find myself first, but it is getting harder and harder to do. But I am working on it, and I trust that God is on my side. Bed time now...

April 3rd

I worked for like 5 and a half hours tonight. It was really good, I pre-closed tonight, and i do tomorrow too, but its fun after a certain point. but I am very very tired, so slumber is imminent, after a freeze pop.

April 2nd

So I took my 4th accounting exam today. I studied with a friend, and feel pretty confident about this one. I started writing again, and rewrote the first chapter in the Knox saga. It may need revising see as I just finished it, and it is early morning. But nevertheless I press on. Towards God, and self realization. Let them lead their lives and I shall lead mine. And I accidentally broke stephen's phone, i threw it to him, and he only got half of the already shaky phone. He could call out, receive calls, and such. He just couldn't see what he was doing or hear anything. So he reactivated Jake's phone in his name, so he got a slightly better phone. But it is most deffinately my bedtime.

April 1st

Good day, fun day, went by fast. Getting over Jessica gets easier by the day. I'm watching Golden Girls and its funny. But I am getting tired, so i'm going to bed...