March 30th

Today was a rocky day, I finished the religious conversation I was having with the guy Jess likes, Jess finally told me to stop talking to her. I think it's best for both of us, just to give each other space. It will help us get over each other, so we can move on. And a newish friend of mine was talking to me, and she told me that I need to learn to love myself, and see that I am a good guy before I can love anyone else. I think she is right, and I am going to try and reach that point through my everyday, and each day get closer and closer to loving myself. Not thinking of myself as son tainted man whore who nobody that I would want would accept me, to thinking of myself as a good guy, that may be flawed but thats okay, at least I am happy with myself even if nobody else is. And I need to work in that direction, and I know I can do it, with positive feedback and constructive criticism from my friends and family, the people that know me best. I am in a much better mood now. I will let her enjoy herself, and I will discover myself, and one day find that happy ending...